I lost the finals. I didn’t play well and our opponents are really good players. I am scheduling paddle lessons once a week. I want to improve my game for the next tournament.
The Burning Man finally expressed how mad he is. He doesn’t approve of my individual activities and is very disappointed on how I’ve been avoiding sex. The performance included gaslighting, flying monkeys, belittlement, lack of empathy and guilt trips. He tried triggering targets that hurt me but I didn’t react to the wounds. I stared at him during his long lasting monologue and witnessed how sick he is.
I am safe and sound at home. A sacred place he has no access to.